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Dated 9th January, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
If sister feels uncomfortable on account of anahat, I may
make the effect go deeper. Throbbings shall no
doubt remain to some extent, due to the force
of energy descending. As for yourself you are
right in doing with your samskaras as you do.
For your craving to discover and see the states,
I suggest the following but it must be done only
once or at the most twice.
Meditation on Soul
'Lie down flat on the bed and begin to meditate on
your soul.' By the process may you begin to
discover the states. But it is rather difficult
to understand the finer states of subtle existence.
I have cleaned your entire system the suksham dots there,
have all been dissolved. Your system is now made
quite pure. All limitations have been removed
from the point 1 and 2 which now possess unlimited
powers. You are full of energy for the work which
I wanted to have from you.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur
14th January, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
I appreciate your work as a preceptor, finding the people
of your satsangh improving in almost all cases.
I am glad to tell you a very fortunate incident
on the 12th January at about 1:30 P.M. while in
train at the time, I found a trail of samskaras
descending upon your heart. Though I took them
out for the most part, in order to avoid their
bhogam, still some effect thereof could not be
avoided and a subtle state of it remains which
may likely be disturbing to you for some time.
I am doing my best in this connection.
I had once written to you that the divine instrument is
at work for putting down desires and you will
have clear knowledge of it when it comes in full
swing. Uneasiness (for that reason), may however
remain for some time. I shall be looking to it
according to needs, though I am very weak at present.
But the work cannot suffer on that account.
I am glad to note that my sister is feeling better. Really
speaking my task in this connection is mostly
over because her direct relation with God is established.
I had told you about it at the time. What remains
for me to do is to purify the different centres
and make her more and more receptive to divine
influence.
.....
With best wishes and love to my disciplined children, my
respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur
21st January, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
......
The spiritual state of my sister is of course remarkably
good, but I have suspended the direct descent
for the time being, and in that case, I was obliged
to sever her direct connection, because you are
much confused. But I assure you that the pain
is not due to direct descent of divine, influence
but is due to some external material causes.
When I did the process for direct descent, I kept a bondage
there, so that the divine wave may descend according
to her capacity. And it was our duty to develop
her capacity.
Regarding your state of contact, I am happy to note that
you get absorbency in the 'Real' for sometime.
With best wishes to both of you, and my love to your children.
My respects to Appaji also.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 30th January, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Commitment
Received your affectionate letters of January 22 and
24 and also the telegram. You seem to be anxious
about my health. In this connection I relate
to you two of the recent incidents, which show
clearly enough that ill health does not hamper
work which God wants to have from us. You know
of my illness at Salem during the recent tour.
The acute pain about the loins had completely
confined me to bed. Shri Rajagopal and Sahai
advised me to postpone departure for some days
till I had recovered. But I did not like any
change and was resolute, that leave I must for
Madras at any cost. About two hours before the
departure time I suddenly felt a heavy jerk
in the diseased portion of the body which shook
me all over. Wonder of wonders, the pain was
at once reduced by 90%. 1 could take up the
journey with comfort and ease which otherwise
was almost impossible. While I was in the train
I felt another similar jerk and the pain was
gone altogether.
The other incident happened on the 24th Jan. Before that
date I was so weak and feeble that I could not
give even one sitting without, having several
hours rest after that. I was anxiously thinking
how shall I be able to transmit continuously for
3 days without a break, though to be away from
it was out of question for me. I would and must
have done it even at the cost of my life. At 6:25
when I came out of bath I felt surprised to find
myself absolutely diseaseless and full of energy
like a young healthy man and even till now I feel
myself so. Do not these incidents teach us a great
lesson that, we must be carefree, trying to abide
by the Nature's will health must no doubt be cared
for and that is our duty but at the same time
we must be confident that no work can suffer on
that account.
Please do not fear that I shall leave you all some day.
That happens only when time comes, but My case
is different. As I have expressed in many of my
letters, I shall be more useful when I leave my
physical form. As long as I am in this world I
shall be serving you all and my services will
continue even after that. Moreover before leaving
the body I shall not take away even a grain of
power or spirituality with me. All that will be
transferred to you all, those deeply attached
getting the greater share there from. besides,
another one, the best from amongst you all shall
be there in my place. When my Master entrusted
the work to me, proclaiming me as his representative,
I did not set to work for about a year (with His
permission no doubt). All this period I devoted
to the study of the various types o f systems
of the people and the proper method, of their
spiritual elevation. For several years after I
had begun working I sought for hints from above,
in all matters relating to the training work.
Afterwards when I had studied and experienced
everything thoroughly I discovered and practised
the method of giving higher approaches in a short
time Without causing any harm. When I put before
the Master my method of bringing a man to Perfection
even at a glance without any risk of life, He
appreciated it in high terms. There is one drawback
in it still which I could not remove. It is that
in such cases the real condition will be revealed
to him gradually in course of time and not instantly,
in which case death is certain. I shall be very
glad if anybody Helps me in the solution. During
our next meeting 1 shall tell you how the power
of transmission can be moulded so as to bring
about the desired result without any strain or
harm to the nervous system.
The centres of light seen in you by Dr. Kuppuswami are
correct though in a different way. You are illumined
all over that is a fact beyond doubt. I perfectly
believe that you have thrown your responsibility
on me and I am fully conscious of it.
You often say you have no love for me. The same I feel
in respect of my Master. Once I had asked my Master
about it and he replied that it is the greatest
love. But this does not relate to persons who
are really devoid of true love. For example take
the case of sister. She is smouldering in the
thought of love without knowing anything of it.
Her case is peculiar.
For some good reasons I do not mean to touch you for about
a week or so and I do not mind whether you feel
shanti or the otherwise. I have filled you with
spiritual energy to your utmost Capacity and it
requires to be digested. The process has already
started from 8:35 A.M. on 23rd January, 1958.
I know your anxiety and have already started praying for
it even before I received your letter. Our job
is only to pray, and the rest with the Master.
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Colour of Points
You asked me once about the colours at the points which I give below:
Point No. 1 Yellow
2 Red
3 White
4 Black
5 Green
Curing Diseases
Note: These colours can be utilised in curing diseases.
Whatever colour is required for curing a particular
disease, the same colour is transmitted to him.
The effect of these colours is explained in
the system of treatment through solar colours.
With best wishes and love to children and pranam to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
Diary Writing
P.S.- I have gone through the diaries sent by you and
I have given my views in brief. One thing which
I specially want to point out is that I want
the diaries in a form which might help me or
you to understand the spiritual state of the
abhyasi or about his difficulties or entanglements.
For this purpose it is better to have it under
the following heads:
1. Date and time.
2. Hour and duration of meditation.
3. Experiences and condition at the time of meditation.
4. General condition of mind at other hours of the
day with any other thing he specially wants
to mention.
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Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 3rd February, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
As far as I see and understand, 'pure consciousness' was
at work among you all during the Utsav-the celebration
days.
Impatience
I am overjoyed to learn of your impatience for 'Realisation'.
It reminds me of my own tale of the past. It
is the only instrument which speeds up our march
to realisation. You are being moulded by the
Nature, for the real service, which you are
already attending to.
Regarding your question of 'real consciousness', I would
add that I am ready to infuse you with my very
blood, if it can be of any use to it. I think,
I did not get you, but I searched and found out
my own being in the form of Varadachari. Real
consciousness is your share and you will have
it decidedly, but I must wait for some time, so
that you may get the experiences of all stages
you are going into, and your capacity may become
so great that you may impart this very thing to
others, so dear to you and myself.
I have promised you in several letters; if I pull on to
that stage instantly, even that, you will take
time for its revelation, because sudden transformation
means sure death of your mortal being. You will
have everything speedily. I of course, admire
your impatience in this respect.
With best wishes to you and to sister, and love to children.
My respect to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Tirupathi
3rd February 1958
My dear Revered and beloved Gurudev,
Please accept my humble pranams. I am in receipt of the
letter which thou hast sent on the 30th Jan. I
am happy to know that you are now absolutely all
right. I did not doubt at all about Thy great
powers but prayed that as it has become my business
for the Master's welfare all the while.
I am equally deeply grateful for the unique opportunity
of being related to you in this life and may I
be thy humble servant doing my work humbly, with
God-given light and strength.
......
I am glad to receive Thy observations on the dairies. I
am yet quite a novice in this matter and very
incompetent in the perceptions about the other
abhyasis. With thy ever present presence in me
I hope to be able to witness and help the abhyasis.
Of course it is Thy supreme work. I feel myself
just an instrument. Sometimes I am not even aware
of the transmission taking place.
I now understand why I am not able to know my condition
myself. But I am assured that all will be well.
I have resigned myself completely to Thee, and
in fact I was even feeling why I was accepting
invitations to speak of Shri Aurobindo. But in
a way that too may by thy blessing help the cause.
Shri Vedantam is already feeling the effects of Thy work
on him; he has started on the path as he was saying
that he saw brilliant light but through mesh.
I asked him to follow The method of the Master.
....
I am deeply aware of the colour problem. I shall try to
use the analysis in my work.
All is Thy work It is Thou who works through every one
of us and I am praying that this consciousness
should never forsake me.
I am sure with Thy blessings it will be possible for me
to more and more be Thine alone and in thy own
language 'dead and gone'.
With most loving pranams,
Your body,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 9th February, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Love of Master
You are God given gift for me and I will spare no pains
in serving you thoroughly. I think all the chains
have been broken out by our Master, but there
is only one, that is, I remain fast bound in
the trammels of affections which you or anybody
have for me.
Reading of Condition
Very soon you will be able to read the inner conditions
of the abhyasis. The work will teach you all
these things. It depends upon the practice also.
When you transmit any abhyasi concentrate a
little over him with the idea of perception
then you will know whether the place is stony
or dark or otherwise. If there is light in any
abhyasi whether he belongs to the Mission or
any other sanstha you will be able to know by
the above method. it is not at all difficult.
Only a little confidence in yourself will reveal
the mystery. When you transmit anybody your
are not aware if it is taking place. The same
condition is mine, when the preceptor gets subtle
and gains absorbency in the inner being be does
not feel that he is transmitting because the
power itself becomes -- free from matter and
it touches the very core of the being. I am
very glad to here this thing from you.
With best wishes to you and love to children. Respect to Appaji.
Yours
Ram Chandra
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Tirupati
11th Feb. 1958
My dear Revered and Beloved Gurudev,
Anguish of a Seeker
I have been going through a lot of depression. I cannot
express my intense sorrows sometimes at my inability
to perceive anything of the higher consciousness
within me. I feel myself so gross and even incapable
of ascent. The work of the preceptor even seems
to be obstructed by my opacity. I do not always
find the condition of the abhyasi before me,
though I must inform you that many of them feel
better. Where am I and how am I these questions
crop up again and again. I am in a sense ashamed
of this condition, as the Master has constantly
been telling me to be otherwise. Of course the
Master knows what bhog to give and to remove.
The dream state has been very confusing of late.
My wife also was speaking of the same condition
in her experiences. Sometimes she had trembling
and saw all light descending.
As I wrote to Thee last time I do not know anything. I
feel myself (or do I?) not even as a conduit pipe
of the Master's energy. I have been trying to
transmit the love of the Master which like energy
will remove all dirt. I have not been particularly
instructed to do the transmission in any way so
I am using my ingenuity to the best of Thy will.
I am Thine. This Thou knowest. But I may not be
up to the mark or even advanced enough. The visions
seem to be just several passing stages but granting
neither the intuitive direct knowledge of the
Veda or the Ultimate which entails so many consequences.
But I am yet 'craving' rather than going beyond
all desires or wishes. I pray for the higher energy
that will make nought all these and
I pray for the entire abolition of my ignorance and ego.
Gratitude
Thou hast done so much for me and it would be sheer
ingratitude if I do not praise Thee for all
that Thou hast been doing. But I love more for
more, to be really able to do and do more, for
the Glory of the Master.
Please accept my humble pranams again
Forgive me these reflections arising out of a heart bruised
and pained and loving the Ultimate Master.
I am yours as body,
KCV
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Tirupati
15th February, 1958
My dear revered and beloved Gurudev,
Please accept my humble pranams. .....
The work is going on. By Thy Grace, I believe that the
abhyasis are improving. I am indeed deeply happy
to learn that the very feeling of absence of transmission
is a very good sign of naturalness and that the
power of the Master flows unobstructed by my awareness,
which is perhaps itself a heaviness. I shall try
to observe more closely.
Trainer's Diary
I intend to keep a separate diary of what I observe
for each abhyasi who chooses to come for special
or individual sitting. I am of late encouraging
the abhyasis to come for individual sitting.
I gave today a sitting to Bro. Annayya Naidu
and he felt exactly as he said he felt when
the Master was here and gave him a sitting.
That really helped much and I have asked him
to come every Saturday fortnight or weekly so
that he may grow in the anubhava.
I am in my own condition as I wrote last week. But Thy
letter has somehow produced in me a very good
effect. I have dedicated myself to Thee and may
yet grow to love thee as my very Self and all
and give up myself to Thee to do as Thou willest.
Only I pray that it may be soon.
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Yours ever,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 25th February, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Laya Avastha in Master
You have written in your letter dt. 9th February, 1958,
(I have felt myself entirely as possessed by
thee, and felt, thou art all for me). How happy
I am to write the reply of the sentences of
yours. The laya avastha (absorbency state,),
has now commenced in you; which is of course,
a very difficult thing to attain for those who
do not adopt the real method you have adopted.
I do not want to say to other abhyasis openly
these things. I have written the same thing
in the Efficacy of Raja Yoga but in a different
way, so that the people may not hold opinion
that I want to be worshipped by them.
My Master once told me in private that he had got so many
disciples, but hardly any one of them had attained
the laya avastha. Spiritually, they are quite
good, but this is a very special thing, in the
spiritual life, which when it shines out brings
up a man to a very high state soon. But Dr. you
are being absorbed in me. I do not know whether
I am a fit man for it. But I tell you that Shri
Ishwar Sahai, when attaining high elevation, came
to know of this method, he began to say it to
the Lovers of the Mission. The result is that
those who are following it are directed towards
the object.
Caution
I tell you my Varadachari, to be specially guarded
with yourself with the thoughts mentioned in
your letter dt. 11.2.58. You must not think
yourself weak or the grossed one, because in
that case your own will-power, will bring up
all your thoughts to be real-one sometime. What
you feel you can write out whether it may be
grossness or opacity, but please do not go into
it deeply. Please remove the idea of depression,
because in that case, since you have started
the laya avast, it will have its effect in maturing
your grossness. I remain open hearted with you
so I want to write something about myself in
this connection. During the period of my abhyas
I devoted myself wholly to consume myself with
my Master. How far I have succeeded, that only
is known to my Master. But I can boldly say,
that I am perfectly confident In myself to bring
about the desired result in the spirituality
within no time.
So, my dear Dr. Varadachari, you will excuse me, if I go
beyond the human limitations to say, that I now
feel the Realisation as child's play, because
it is the easiest and no time is required for
it. I am also writing these things for your encouragement,
that you are attempting a very simple thing and
is growing simpler day by day for its achievement.
Truly speaking the real faith comes only when
you absorb yourself only to the Real Being. There
the will works as the command in the spiritual
matter.
I have not told you the method of transmission, because
in any way what you do now is all correct, as
your force will be working for the spiritual uplift
of others. During my next visit, I shall tell
you a few masterly things, which you can do perfectly
well. Meanwhile you please gain some experience
yourself. I keep watch over your works also and
help is bestowed upon you always and all of them
are proving and the system is clarified thereby.
It is better, if you keep a separate diary of what you
observe in each abhyasi, and if You doubt on any
point you can seek my advice.
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With best wishes to you and love to children. My respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 28th February, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
I hope you must have received a letter from
Mr. P.N. Midayal from Calcutta informing me that he felt
much elevated in the sitting given by you. When
a man is charged with the spiritual force, then
follows the automatic run of its display. Moreover,
you will find this effect developing day by day.
There may come a time when the audience may go
into a state of trance, while hearing you.
Transmission by voice
I found in my Master that whenever he spoke or read
anything, all of us felt suspended. The transmission
by voice is very strong. When you ever speak
on our system of Sahaj Marg, then observe how
much power is gushing out from you towards the
audience. I have yet to give power to speech
when you really require it. My experience tells
me one thing more -- that there are certain
limitations in ones system which prevent a man
in coming up to the Nature's harmony. Our voice
should be in conformity with the silent voice
of Nature and this condition begins from the
very first stage and ends in the last one. That
is why I often say that nobody can go out of
the platform of the Mission, without having
some spiritual food dissolved in him, if one
gets the chance of hearing the preceptors of
the Mission.
With best wishes to you and love to children.
My respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 6th March, 1958
My dear Varadachari
I was happy to know of the vision you felt at Calcutta.
This is due to your state of progress. I have
already written about this in my previous letter
and there is nothing to add now.
The audience at Calcutta, according to the tendencies of
their fashioned minds, felt the presence of 'Mother'
and who knows it might be so, but that, at the
root, must I think, be a tongueless power working
through the agency. You have prepared field for
it, though mostly by self-effort, which goes to
your own credit. This is why Nature works its
own way through you as in the case of atom, ions
and electrons. There is but one energy working
through all the universe. What we are therefore
to do is to become the medium for the utilisation
of its power for proper use.
Sruti
There is the example of the rishis of the Vedic time
who were in conformity with Nature. The result
of it was sruti. This can happen even now but
only if we become blind and deaf. Realisation
comes only when we become blind and sruti follows
only when we turn deaf, the words 'deaf and
'blind' not being used in physical sense. So
these things are neither difficult nor impossible
at any time. Nature which once set into action
through human medium, can do so again through
similar medium, and this may be the time as
Nature is evidently attracting humanity towards
itself. That is why religious awakening, crude
or subtle I was it may be, is found everywhere
in one or the other form.
Transmission
I tell you, Doctor, that the long forgotten Transmission
will be the subject of attention for all human
beings in existence. We have got that which
seemed to have been lost, and now we have it
and work with it, thanks to my Great Master.
My dear Varadachari I am sure you will be sorry
to hear our tale of woe. Since U.P. has long
been under Mohammedan influence, Hinduism here
underwent changes, creating knots to separate
each other. It may be surprising to note that
Mohammedans here claim it as their own originality,
which though far from being a fact, I do not
dispute, with a view that it may work for the
betterment of humanity at large, not minding
whoever may be its originator. All the different
sects of Mohammedanism (72 in all) have Transmission
as their base, directly or indirectly, and every
one of them is acquainted with it and acknowledges
it. But among Hindus a few perhaps might even
believe its genuineness. They are mostly incredulous
about it and prefer to interpret it as hypnotism
or similar baser science. We must pray to God
that His will be done and the down-trodden masses
may wake up to the Real Life. Now it is our
lookout to improve it as best as possible for
the benefit of humanity irrespective of caste
or creed.
Point A
I am overjoyed to inform you that you have crossed
the region and have come to the Point A (as
I call it) on 1st March, 1958 at 9:42 A.M. I
do not find names for these regions so I take,
them by numbers.
Avoiding Disturbance
You write that disturbance often occurs in meditation,
sleep and dream, but when you seek refuge in
me they disappear. I tell you a prescription
for it and it is perhaps the best. It is this,
'Make room for me to take refuge in you permanently.'
In that case all things will settle down in
a permanent way. I think, Doctor, you will like
this prescription very much because it can very
easily be taken.
Reading of Condition
The reading of other's condition depends upon practice
also. For example I give you my experience.
Once when I gave a sitting to a gentleman I
found in his heart huge piles of bricks. I cleaned
it off. Then I saw heaps of coal in its place.
I asked him whether he ever had a business of
bricks and coal to which he replied in the affirmative.
Now look here Doctor, intuition brought all
these things to my knowledge, but it was experience
and intelligence that helped me to come to the
right conclusion.
It is the Holi today. Let us all of us is colour ourselves with colourlessness.
With best wishes and love to children,
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 2lst March, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Realisation
I am happy to note that your experiences are genuine
and not the concocted ones. Due to the efficacious
teachings of my Master, very high conditions
begin to reign sometimes, though momentary,
so that the abhyasi may get the real substance
for his approach to the Ultimate. Now I come
to the question of Realisation. I can safely
say that you have realised to the extent of
your approach. But my conception, as I have
expressed in some, of my letters, is the simplest
and the nearest. When you begin to live in Brahma
permanently with changeless condition as its
characteristics then it is the complete Realisation,
as much as reserved for the human beings. I
am taking you to that stage of the real life
and I hope I will succeed by God's grace. The
thing is not at all difficult but it looks like
that because there is still field to cross over.
I give you my idea because you are mine and
you will ever remain mine. I do not generally
hanker that my associates may get liberation
because it is the cheapest thing to acquire
and no time is needed for it. What I want is
that you may have your share of work in the
Nature and the mystery be revealed to you like
an open book. If I could create one such man
even, my Mission is over but I will not rest
a while unless such many personalities may come
in existence. But that is my desire only and
its fulfillment depends solely upon God.
Harmony with Nature
Now comes your another question regarding your being
in harmony with nature. I think I have sufficiently
expressed in the above lines, but to make it
more clear on this point concerning you, I would
add as I said in one of my letters that I have
dissolved the creases or the dots which find
place when the river shifts its bed from one
place to another. This is an example only. My
vision has been degenerated so much that I always
see the defects to be removed and the minutest
things are coming to my view. I assure you one
thing more, which you have said in one of your
previous letters that you are not at all gross.
But subtle and gross are two different things.
Where exists subtleness, the idea of grossness
is there. Now it becomes my duty that I may
keep you off with both of these things so that
you may become beyond the relative terms. Then
will, come the Nature's harmony. You have entered
the sandy desert but you are still affected
by the simooms coming from the other side. Proceed
on and on which you are doing. Then you be free
from the effects of these winds. I have every
hope from you.
I am very thankful to you that you are doing the work of
satsangh effectively. The strength is there in
you and it works. I prefer individual sittings
besides congregational satsangh because in that
case you get time to give him satsangh according
to his needs. .....
With best wishes to you, love to children and respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 22nd March, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
You are writing in your letter that you are unable to say
anything about your present condition adding that
whoever sits in your satsangh, feels anand. This
in itself is depictive of your own condition.
I have now taken your case again which I had left,
as I had told you in one of my letters, for some
time so that the power imparted by the Master
at Tirupati, may be digested. Now you have come
to the standard that my task is growing easier.
Though I do not know the reason but I find it
very easy to work when a man comes to the higher
regions. But I again say to the contrary to what
I have said that my work remains as it is, to
bring the abhyasi in to harmony with Nature. The
higher region works very much in this cause but
there is still a place left for me to work into.
Please study your condition minutely and you will
find decidedly a change.
With best wishes to you, love to children and respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 5th April, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Your dream has no spiritual significance. It is neither for nor against it. Such dreams come due to dietic error and physiological disturbances.
I do not know whether I should express in the book written
by Shri Ishwar Sahai about my conception of Kundalini
when it does not tally with the scriptures. But
I do not know my dear Varadachari, why I am always
sure of my revelation. I also tally my own readings
sometimes from my Master then only I pen it down.
When I concentrate a little on any point its character
begins to reveal and the heart becomes contented.
I am writing to you the circumstances which led me to believe
about my right conception. When Shri Raghavendra
Rao met me for the first time, about three years
ago, he being a science student put me some questions
about electrons and ions. I gave him my own research
in the matter but not in scientific terms. When
I met him at Gulbarga this time, he told me that
a Chinese philosopher, six months ago, gave out
the same research as you did, about three years
before. Divisional Forest Officer is my friend
and he put me to trial by questioning me about
some botanical matters. I gave him my own findings
which were not so far known. He was already researching
something about it and wrote down the points and
later the research was found correct. There are
so many other things. Now I again come to Shri
Raghavendra Rao, who said this time in Gulbarga
that there is a theory in Science of 'indiscrimination'
which hampers the further research regarding electrons
and ions. I told him the way if research be made
by this method then the theory of indiscrimination
will not work. Having regard to this matter, I
gave him the further research and also told him
that there is one atom near about. If you concentrate
on it to reveal the character of the electrons
and ions, then you will be saved from the theory
of indiscrimination. We were walking on the street
of Gulbarga, when he told me such a thing. Dr.
I always praise you and myself.
...... The stage you are enjoying at present is the pretty
realisation for others. But to me it is only a
glimpse. Having this idea I have written to you
that you have realised to the extent of your approach.
......
Merging point
You are perfectly right that you have no separate existence
but let it flourish to its full length. I hope
there will come a time when neither You will
be there nor God Himself. That is the merging
point. I don't think I am using the heathen
language in the expression of the condition.
You have written something about Kam etc. They
will all come to moderation.
Turiya
How happy am I to inform you that you are coming to the state of turiya.
The time was about 11 P.M. but I hesitate to give date
that it was the Ist April, 1958. Let us see how
much time you take in coming to its full fledged
state.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 21st April, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
Reading the Condition
Your work as a preceptor is excellent. I find that
all the abhyasis are improving in the very depth
of being and its effect is coming from the depth
to the surface. I have to learn this method.
You have written that you are unable to read
fully the mental and the physical condition
of the abhyasi which is a very easy thing in
comparison to your great work. Please read the
abhyasi with confidence in yourself and you
will see that it will be correct. You have got
the capacity of reading. I assure you? but you
are not sure that you can read it. That is the
only difficulty in the way. Please take two
or three cases of your satsanghis, read them
internally whether they have darkness, grossness
and so on and write me for the sake of verification.
I shall devote some time so that you may develop
this character also, although you are not wanting
in it. This is a very easy thing.
My affection towards Shri Vedantam is growing day by day
and I find that he is being purged of heaviness.
The effect of your transmission is proceeding
firmly and happily from the root to the surface.
Knots
I was elated to see the words of your sentence that
you will not rest till the Ultimate condition
is arrived at. It is for you and you will decidedly
realise it., I' do not remember what I have
written in the book regarding the state given
under each granthis and the book is at Lakhimpur,
but I remember that on your question in one
of your letters I had written to you that your
approach is on the ninth knot. After the ninth
or tenth granthi I took the major ones because
the difference between the minor knots was inexpressible.
So I took the broader steps regarding these
granthis and I finished the run of spiritual
life on thirteen granthis. I conclude from these
things that you are on the tenth knot.
Pt P1
I think I have given you my conception of realisation.
When saint Kasturi reached the point of X Y
she was in the state of Jivan moksha. Now she
has to cross sixteen points more. She is now
on the point P-1 where the circumstances are
being created for forgetting the soul consciousness.
But I cannot call her the full realised soul,
but to other s she is a perfectly realised one.
My Dr. if I think of any point or approach as
ultimate, my thought will not travel further.
Of course when an abhyasi creates laya avastha
in Brahma my thought will automatically cease,
because there is no programme of work for further
approach.
Dry Regions
You have crossed the richer region and now you have
entered the dry ones. The conditions of these
spheres are mostly inexpressible, but you can
relish the state and see its effects in yourself.
I used to write to my Master my condition by
way of diary, but the time came when even metaphorical
language failed to express that. I hope your
body idea will soon depart and please write
to me to what extent it has faded out. I have
touched upon this thing in Efficacy of Raja
Yoga.
When Master's blessings are pouring in you what not you will have.
With best wishes to you. Love to children and my profound respect to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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April 28th 1958
My dear Revered and beloved Gurudev,
Humility
Please accept my sincere and loving pranams. I am in
receipt of your kind letter dated 21 inst. It
is all due to thy grace that I am able to do
the precerptorial work efficiently. If the work
is of the kind you have described the method
also is due to thee. I do not know whether I
know the roots from the stem, or branches.
Since thy wish is that I should not say that I am gross
or ignorant, subtle or intelligent, I shall stop
thinking about my condition, and let it go on.
Anticipation
The whole system has been in a state of peculiar excitement,
which I am unable to describe. I had prayed
for the fullness of this humble being by the
Master so that I could experience the supersensuous
states of sabda, sparsa, tejas, rasa and gandha.
My internal condition then is one of excitement
over the next step. Sometimes I feel almost
that I should cease to be - so trying are the
outer conditions -but I am looking out for the
signs of Thee in me - of the merging of the
Isvara in me, and me in the Isvara. Even consciousness
seems to be a burden. How I wish I could dive
into the ocean of Bliss.
Nothing is known about my service here. Hope there is of
continuation. Only I do not know how the forces
will work. Should one be precarious in spirituality.
Experience while working
Master so far as I know I tried to read the internal
conditions. Sometimes I am successful after
five or ten minutes. In the meanwhile my absorption
in myself comes up and then again I. revert
to my work of cleaning the abhyasi. They do
not feel anything except improvement and calm,
and in some cases I find that the abhyasis are
getting into a state of absorption, unable to
get up - it happened in the case of Somesvara
Sarma who told me that he felt a great flare
up of energy within him when I called a halt
to the meditation. In another case, of V. Seetaramayya
there was the descending flood of light removing
all dirt. In the case of Dhond Rao , there was
a sense of being absorbed. He seems to be developing
extreme love.
.....
Prayer
Master, this is my prayer: Let me experience the Ultimate
permanently in me. Be thou with me permanently.
I cannot express my feelings regarding the body idea. I
shall write to you about it as soon as I see that
fading out.
I had Thy article in the latest issue of Sahajmarg translated
and read at the satsangh yesterday. Thy last words
that Nature has taken up the work of purging the
world of 'bhaktas' has been most encouraging news.
Samatva
I am sometimes thinking whether Master the avyakta
state of prakrti of Nature is working in the
abhyasis when I transmit Thy Power and Light
as it is suggested that it is samatva by the
Samartha Guru in his latest publication in the,
Sahai Marg. Perhaps that might be the reason
why Thou suggest that I work from the roots
to the surface.
Whatever is happening and will happen are in Thy hands.
I can only surrender and abide by Thy will.
With loving pranams, I am yours,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 5th May, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Received your loving letter ...... Dr. I tell you my experience
of satsangh that those who are intellectual, having
full faith on our cult and God advance soon. Devotion
of course counts much in the field.
I always desire that you remain happy in every way - worldly
and spiritually and I am glad to hear from you
that the difficulties of life do not touch you
so painfully. Your experience on Sunday the 13th
April was correct and you have done well in removing
the darkness. If it remains anything of the sort,
I will play my own part.
.....
With best wishes to you and love to children. Respect to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 5th May, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Thinking and Feeling
After closing the above letter I received your affectionate
letter dt. 28th April, '1958. I have written
to you previously that you should not think
or consider yourself as gross. I think there
is a difference, between thinking and feeling.
If you feel a thing, that means that there is
the revelation of a certain thing. Thinking
also has the idea of the thing which may be
not there. There are two such powers which are
awakened automatically in a yogi. One of them
is that he can bring about the desired results
by mere imagination. The other thing that comes
in a yogi is attraction. This is all due to
-the fact that you practise like that. You meditate
on the heart waiting for His grace, that means
you get into practice in inviting His grace.
When this power develops to the highest degree
of eminence, the greatest souls can appear before
him at his bid. The next thing is when you meditate
on light, for reality, the very attribute of
God which you have made the point of meditation,
brings the real thing at the bottom. So, please,
if you feel anything, it must be written to
me because feeling will continue. Feeling cannot
deceive you. On the contrary, thinking if unwisely
directed may bring the bad results.
Mahboobiat
You have depicted very good condition in Your letter
regarding your excitement. Really we should
be devoted to the Divine Master and this thing
will help you in merging. Kabir has written
very beautifully that, "The drop enters the
ocean, is known to all and the ocean enters
the drop is known to a few only." Now, I refer
to your condition. I would like just to give
you a hint. You have proceeded with the thought
of Divine Master Now the condition changes.
The Divine Master is Himself in Your own thought.
The same condition is surely there in you, but
let us see whether you feel like that or not.
Kabir says, "I can only get rest, if Ram thinks
of me." I remember that I have read in some
of the Sufi literature, saying so, but the author
has given only one word, "Mahboobiat" - "Object
of love". How I wish, that all our associates
may get into this condition. Those who are marching
with faith and devotion, they come across all
such conditions, a few feel and the other do
not, but they all pass through these conditions.
Essence of Consciousness
How beautifully you have put in, that consciousness
has become the burden to you. Dr., I think I
am very fortunate to find such conditions among
my associates. If you observe anything there
in your system as consciousness, think that
you have to go further off. I shall be elated
if I see your approach above the consciousness
which is the basis of the existence' All our
inner activities should be faded out to observe
super-sensuous states. The occidental philosophers
may not believe it, because they have probably
no such word as super-consciousness in their
dictionary. Am I right doctor? We add the word
state after the conscious of super-conscious,
which is itself a proof that these are mere
conditions and we have to go far above them.
It may be the essence of all these consciousness.
If we reach that stage, that means we are abiding
in Ishwar, but the journey or yatra is not finished
as yet. I would stop here.
Idea of Existence
You have asked me, "If one should be precarious in
spirituality. "I think this is the question
to be solved by men of your calibre. I can,
however, give my own view. As long as we have
the idea of our own existence, the Master is
there and service becomes obligatory to us.
We a bide by His Will praying at the same time
for our good, because it becomes our duty as
a devotee to lay before our master the shortcomings
and difficulties. When anyhow, we are aware
of the idea of our existence and also of God
then the Master and the servant both almost
converge themselves into one unity that is 'Real'.
I tell you Doctor, my idea that there always
remains a bondage as long as we exist in physical
form. There are of course, the stages, which
one shall have to cross i.e., all the circles
mentioned in Reality at Dawn. But if the bondage
is not kept on the last circle, the soul will
leave the body to its original Existence.
When the bondage is there, the idea of our existence is
also there. The idea of course remains in a sleeping
condition i.e., in a nascent State. Our duty too
comes in consonance with it.
Reading of condition
You are successful in reading the internal condition
of abhyasi but your absorption puts a check
to it. This will occur with every reader, if
he proceeds in your way. When you want to know
a thing, concentrate on the abhyasi, but do
not increase the depth of .concentration. If
there is the depth, the God will begin to charge
you with His grace, and absorption will be the
result. The effect of your transmission is so
powerful that the abhyasi becomes absorbed in
the inner power and the different senses do
not work in that case. So they do not get, up.
I tell you one more thing, the abhyasis who
easily go into that condition are good media.
When the sun shines, the darkness dispels and
when you shine in the heart of abhyasi the dirt
finds its exit.
.....
Samatva
What I have written in my previous letter means that
(your power acts at the very root from which
we grow), that it influences the outer coverings
to be torn off. It is really samatva by the
Samartha Guru of Fatehgarh, which works through
us. When we did not come in contact with the
Master, we could do nothing. If you want to
ask anything further in this connection, please
write to me. It is very pleasing to me that
you are taking a great pain, in serving the
associates spiritually for which, I can only
pray, that your services may be counted. .....
.....
With best wishes to you and love to children. My respect to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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5th May 1958
My dear Gurudev,
Please accept my loving pranams. All of us are keeping
fit. I have not yet heard from the University
about myself. I have placed myself at the hands
of the Master and am having a quiet resignation.
I have been full of Thy energy these days. Indeed I have
been trying to bring down the spiritual energy
from the Central Region to play more and more
on the adharas of the abhyasis. I believe that
is thy will. I found that Shri C.R. Krishnamurthi
telling me that he had begun to experience the
ajap for a couple of minutes last week. I indeed
did that transmission last week. I am almost all
the time anxious to merge myself, to dive into
the depths of the Infinite Bhuma.
Loss of Body Consciousness
..... Regarding the loss of body consciousness, I have
to report that the other day when I was meditating,
it seems I scratched myself (my wife reported
that), but I was utterly unaware of that action.
I believe this is mentioned in Thy book in the
very manner. I do not know whether that means
loss of body consciousness.
With love,
Yours,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur U.P.
Dated 8th May, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Will of the Master
Received your loving letter dated 5th May, 1958. How
I wish that your service may remain continued
and I pray for that. That is the only remedy
open to us; the result remains with Him and
Him alone. We should adjust ourselves abiding
by His will. If He closes one door, He opens
some other,
.....
With best wishes to you and love to children. Respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
22nd May 1958
My dear Revered and beloved Gurudev,
The fortnight has been mainly uneventful. I cannot clearly
describe my condition. It is a kind of quiet,
sometimes I am deeply aware of Thy power and grace
- one day I felt myself full of fire and energy.
I pray that my consciousness of thee may be permanent
and Thou reside in me permanently.
With humble pranams,
Yours,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 5th June, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Received all your loving letters. I feel it a matter of
pride to find that most of the members there improving
and a few having begun to experience ajapa. I
wish that by the time this letter reaches you
ajapa may have started in every satsanghi there.
I appreciate your idea of merging into the depth
of the Infinite Bhuma. The very craving for it
brings the goal nearer.
Stages of progress
I have given in the Efficacy of Raja Yoga that a sleeping
man being stung by the mosquitoes begins to
rub or scratch the spot involuntarily and unconsciously.
I thereby mean to say that all our worldly actions
also should be done in the same way so that
they might produce no impression upon the mind.
If the impressions are there you are the doer
of all things and the formation of samskaras
is there. Forgetting of the body-idea means
that your mind does not feel in any way that
you are embodied. I think the condition is there.
When you forget the body idea in to you come
to the regime of soul. When you forget the soul-idea
then you have entered into Reality. When that
too is gone you are nearest to Bhuma.
Disembodied Souls
You have written that some disembodied souls seem to
receive transmission from you. It often happens
with other preceptors too. The souls do come
to receive benefit from the effect of transmission.
I think I had told you about it when I was there
with you.
When you feel yourself there you are full of energy and
when you are not there the Divine Master shines
in you.
Condition of Vacantness
If you see the shadow you feel some material thing
behind, or the smoke, giving clue of the fire.
Similarly vacantness (using the word in the
unusual sense for vacuity) reflects signs of
Divinity. When a man begins to absorb in Brahm,
the first symptom of it is that he feels himself
vacuumised and at, its highest limit laya avastha
begins. If at times You feel vacant ness that
means Brahm has begun to give Its own clue.
Like ultraviolet rays which are used for curing
physical diseases, vacantness too is a means
for removing defilements. Now Nature is helping
you and as you proceed on, her work becomes
stronger and that is the idea of Dry region.
Maya begins to melt away and dryness begins
to follow, as you become poorer by losing sight
of enrichment. In short you begin to get free
from the moisture of the world as you proceed
on.
Centre of Maya
..... the azure blue colour witnessed in her by you,
denotes that she has developed some occult powers
as the colour, referred to above is closely
related with vishudha, chakra, which is also
known as durga chakra and is the centre of maya
in pind desh. Her thought seems to be more within
the state of fluttering than of soaring.
With best wishes to you and love to children and respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 8th June, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Yatra of Point A
For the rest of your letter, about your own spiritual
condition I may say that I am grateful to my
Master who has bestowed upon you such a nice
spiritual state. I feel that your yatra of point
'A' is now over. I wish you may step on to the
next point by yourself for which I am trying
and I think it will be so within a few days.
With best wishes to you and love to children and respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
June 14th 1958
My dear beloved and revered Gurudev,
.....
Aspiration
I am deeply sensible of the love and affection that
the Master has for my humble self and pray to
Him of all wisdom and light and glory to lead
me to the Ultimate. I have only one idea now,
that of attaining the Ultimate and by Thy grace
and I hope that my love for thee may grow more
and more intense and concentrated as to be constant
remembrance.
With all my soul and being yours,
KCV
|
Tirupati
3rd June 1958
My dear and beloved Gurudev,
.....
Reading of Condition - Clarifications
I have not been able to express myself clearly about
many things. It may well be asked when is the
clear reading of a person made possible? In
some cases it has been seen that my own light
is reflected from the others? What is the possible
explanation seeing recently almost all as coloured
by the blue lighting?
Report of Condition
Regarding my experience of the present state or stage
I have to submit that it is very dry. Infrequently
I have the experience of fullness as in the
last satsangh yesterday. Master, how can I say
that I have gone beyond or far ahead of the
gentlemen you had mentioned in your last letter?
Things here are in the outer world much the same and indeed
nothing has been clarified. I am attending the
College from the 26th instant as no contrary order
had been passed. Further the new set up does not
promise any good work to be done. I cannot of
course get reconciled to this except by feeling
that All is for the best in the long run. It is
this that continues to cause anguish and depression.
Yet one finds that one has to carry on the running
of the family and employment seems to be the only
way. To make ends meet. Resignation to God is
the only way as far as I can see, and I believe
I have done it to God and Thee.
In the meanwhile I am praying that light be granted to
me to be able to do my work for thee and be able
to serve the Master, I know that but for thy grace
the work could not be done and further I am aware
that though I am not perfect thou makest it appear
all the work as perfect. Transmission is by thee
alone and I seem to be just an imperfect conduit
pipe, unconscious of the flow of Thy energy. I
pray for more and more illumination of the path
and the highest achievement of union with Thee
-- the ultimate.
.....
With loving pranams,
yours
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 30th June, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Received your affectionate letter of 14th June, 1958. I
could not reply earlier due to the unhappy incident
of Dinesh's death. He was a young man of character
and firm will, possessing a sound physique. He
was bold and courageous but at the same time obedient
and respectful towards the elders. By nature he
was silent type with firm determination. He was
not excited by the news of failure but remained
perfectly calm and peaceful, busy with his own
plans, perhaps. His death has opened for me a
new chapter to think over. I put clown the same
to you for the correct solution.
We must have faith in God and the Divine Will, which is
the last resort of us all. But being a free thinker,
I feel induced to trace out the real cause of
the incident on the basis of my experience and
whether it could be averted or not.
A few days after his examination was over an idea flashed
across my mind that he may likely shoot himself
if he fails in the examination. But the thought
disappeared the very moment it arose. Again on
the day of occurrence, the same idea came in several
times, but I paid no heed to it. Why? I do not
know. Nature's Will over-rules everything, but
I feel bold enough to assert, irreligious though
it might be, that it could be stopped or averted
if I had attended to the thought arising within
my mind. Usually in all such cases related to
my Associates, I am always alert and do my best
to remove the effect of shock instantly. Why I
failed to attend in this particular case is a
mystery to me! His suicidal tendencies were known
to my mind and could very easily be removed by
the exercise of spiritual force or by administering
some Homeopathy medicines for the purpose. I failed
to do anything find he went off uncared for in
this respect. Was it the Divine will or the result
of my careless inattentiveness?
For some instances of the kind I may say that once one
of my associates (a man of very ordinary standing
of only a few months) chanced to meet two of his
friends who had resolved firmly to commit suicide
and were going to bring their plan into action.
He talked to them for some time, inwardly meditating
on the thought that my power was working through
him to change their minds. After a few minutes
they confessed that they had given up the idea
of suicide.
Shri Kashi Ram of Tinsukia once resolved to end his life
by striking his head against the Wall in a fit
of devotional madness. But the moment he stood
up for it, he saw me in a vision, pulling him
aside and rebuking him for it.
Another incident happened two years ago when he was Leaving
this place for Assam. Finding him to be very sad
and remorseful, I told him that I shall accompany
him during the entire journey.
He realised my presence all along. During the course of
journey he had to cross the Brahmaputra by steamer.
But as no steamer was available at the time he
preferred to take up a boat in order to avoid
delay. But unfortunately the boat began to capsize
in the middle of the river. All of a sudden my
mind echoed that Kashi Ram's boat was in danger.
Instantly I rushed to the spot in the astral form
and carried him safely to the other bank. Kashi
Ram felt that he saw my form in the river supporting
the boat right and left till it got safely to
the bank.
As for Dinesh just before committing suicide, he offered
the last moment homage, with real faith to my
Master and then thinking of me he pulled the trigger.
He had great faith in me and my Master, this I
did not know before. Regarding his inner state
he was all light within, having a very pure heart.
As the result he was already in a state of elevation
at which the formation of samskaras ceases. After
his death I studied his case and found very few
samskaras of the past life in him, which could
be very easily exhausted within this very life.
The suicidal ideas were of course there in heaps
which I cleared off and burnt down. Soon after,
the soul appeared to me and fell down at my feet
saying that he was very sorry for all that had
been done and apologised for it, stating that
he could not gain liberation unless I pardoned
him. I pardoned him and he is now in the Brighter
World.
Now the mystery for you to solve. If it is taken as a Divine
Will, no question arises at all. But if it is
weighed philosophically, the theory of determination
and indetermination comes in.
Divine Light perceptions
Let me come to your letter referred to above. It is
good, what I had written to you about Shri Aurobindoji
tallies with your astrological perceptions also.
If you want anything further about the inner
history of his spiritual pursuit it can also
be given to you in a nutshell. I tell you one
thing in this connection. Before he regularly
started spiritual practice blue light appeared
in his heart which he took to be from Lord Krishna.
It is not a new thing. It can occur in different
ways to individuals who have got pious heart.
The amalgamation of thought according to its
tendency with the matter, produces light according
to it. Since he was highly intellectual the
same colour he noticed in the form of light.
our method is systematic and we allow the different
colours to come in the natural way. To those
who take up the coloured light, it also changes
in its different stages, but the process to
get the right thing is prolonged.
.....
I have given in the Efficacy of Raja Yoga that consciousness
is not our goal. The time is soon at hand when
you will actually realise it yourself, because
you have already crossed the major portion of
consciousness. When you cross all these states
of consciousness you will come to a dormant stage
or the silent type of consciousness. When you
go farther into it, you will have immense power
at your command. I think it may not be a vain
assertion to say that the rotation of earth can
be stopped for some moments if that power is utilised.
It can be utilised for general good of the world;
change of season can be affected by it; rain can
be brought in at any time. But however we may
proceed on we have to remain dependent to the
Divine. I tell you one thing more which may seem
to be contradictory to the above view. When Nature
gives sole charge of a work to any one, She does
not then meddle with what he does in that respect.
Atri Rishi
Let me tell you that Atri Rishi who is still alive
and resides in Himalayan region is as handsome
as you are and your features resemble his to
a great extent. He is in charge of the adjustment
of seasons. If he does anything nature will
not interfere in it. He does what is needed.
Only if any commanding authority orders him
to have showers he is bound to do that. He can
do it himself if it is within the range of his
programme. I have written all this simply for
the sake of your general information.
.....
Swami Vivekananda
I shall also go through the book Swami Vivekanand in
America which you are going to review. But that
will be possible only when I am there in my
next tour. Swami Vivekanand was indeed a very
high personality. His master once revealed to
me that he could make only one man and he, had
transferred all his powers to him, while on
death bed, just as my Master had done in my
case. I have previously pointed out to you that
when a saint of calibre leaves the world the
power he possessed is left for the disciples.
If there is no disciple able to digest it he
has then to wait for the purpose or transfer
it to another capable man without any regard
to sanstha. By his Master's order he did transfer
his power to me claiming me to be his representative.
I had to accept it under instructions from my
Master. Two more saints have done likewise.
I find a similar example among Sufis where a
great saint had nominated his representative
after a lapse of 150 years. My Master has instructed
me to take Swami Vivekanand also as master and
that his orders, require no confirmation from
him. He has severed his connection from his
own sanstha in 1949 when I was on tour to Gaya
along with Ishwar Sahai. Since then the curvature
has started in that sanstha and it is now going
down towards degeneration, as Shri Krishnamurti
of Madras has already guessed. Under directions
from Swamiji I had intimated this fact to the
President of Ram Krishna Mission Calcutta requesting
him to connect his dynamo with me to receive
spiritual help. There was no reply. Probably
he took me to be a man of insane mind.
......
With good wishes and love to children, and due respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Tirupati
undated
My dear Beloved Master,
Please accept my salutations and pranams. I received your
loving letter. I can well appreciate the deep
distress that has been caused by the death of
Dinesh. Indeed for men other than thy calibre
it would have been terrible. but th distress in
Thy case is not merely love but the peculiar hand
of fate. I remember challenging Aurobindonites
who said that though astrology is true yet the
Yogi transcends the laws and determinations of
the starts. All that can be done is that we can
utilise the forces of the stars for the higher
purposes of higher evolution. Indeed this death
is an opening to Ch. Dinesh quicker to the liberation
he asked for free from the maddening crises of
examinations, which examine nothing at all really.
Even so the death of Aurobindoji must be an opener
to new frontiers to him, frontiers he would not
recognize as he was committed gravely to different
view. The problem of determinism and freedom of
will or the power to change the natural law or
change over to another law is indeed beyond most
of s. I cannot say that there was dereliction
or non-alertness, something deep in Thy Being
must have prompted the neglect to take precaution.
That is the Divine Will, with which Thou art indeed
identified. That shows thy transcendence. We have
not been able to explain why there should be this
neglect to take warnings at home. There must have
been a deep feeling of the Master taking care
of one's own. The secret meaning of this the Master
alone can say. It is exactly a similar situation
to what Naciketas forbade when he asked what happens
to one on release: does he exist or does he not?
However I must pray to the Master to bear with
this calamity and protect His heart which is very
tender and sensitive to this. Our philosophy has
no answer to this except to say that man hopes
he is free and deeply feels that he ought to be
free to change all natural laws. Hence all our
effort.
It felt that this news may not be distributed to all but
since it has been done I pray to God that all
satsanghis will pray for the Master's Health and
the welfare of the departed soul, however misguided.
I personally do not like mystery but things to
happen that lead us beyond the level of ordinary
perception.
.....
Supreme Personality
Master when I had been trying to observe thee of late
frequently I discovered that in Thee there was
hardly any stir or movement', but the calm plenitude
of the dusky dawn - colourless but sometimes
glowing with subdued light. Then I knew that
thou art, indeed the supreme Personality. This
has been very constant and I prayed that I may
perceive thy form also.
Thou sayest that very soon I shall reach the silent, consciousness
which is beyond all consciousness. I am eagerly
looking forward to that stage when
I shall drown myself in Thee. Digested by Thee. I shall,
discover the true poise of being I hope.
Though I find myself incompetent to console Thee yet I
know that it is most difficult to console the
children and Mataji at home. The mystery of death
is indeed the profoundest mystery and if our yoga
can open up the frontiers of this would beyond
it would perhaps remove the, terrors and agonies
of death. It has to be some thing that comes with
the vividness of a real experience and that is
one of the many yearnings in my humble heart.
.....
Gratitude
Thy kindness and love to me are such that thou, attributest
achievements to me when really it is the Master's.
All progress in this place is due to Thy Grace
and presence within -me and with me permanently.
.....
With love,
Yours,
KCV
|
11th July 1958
My dear Revered and beloved Gurudev,
I once remember to have read the wise saying of a Greek
Satyr: "The first best is not to be born: the
second best is to die at once. " Such a purified
soul as Dinesh must have felt this call. Thou
hast thyself told me not to give sittings to students
and boys who are yet studying and that is presumably
because they discover that there are more things
than study can give.
.....
Divine Light
I have been feeling thy presence and full force during
the sittings at the satsangh on Sunday mornings.
I have also been perceiving pressure in different
parts of the head. I perceive, continuously
'Thee' as a firm light colourless. I do not
perceive Thy Form but the formless and indeed
this seems to be for me the only way of perception
of the rest of the sadhakas too. I pray Master
that thou mayest grant me the prayer to be able
to see, hear and mind all through thy divine
vision, audition and mentation, so that I may
cross over this ignorance. It is true that for
the first time during the past few weeks I have
been finding myself to be all light - more like
the moonlight than the sunlight. Surely I think
one reflects the Divine light.
The love for thee may it grow every day till I can be drowned in Thee or more fully get digested in thee.
.....
Praying that I may attain the Ultimate and know all by thy grace and for thy work, I offer my loving pranams to you,
yours as body,
KCV
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 15th July, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
..... I do not keep any secret and want to stand before
you as naked as I was when I was born for the
first time. It will be revealed to you sooner
or later because you are gradually coming in conformity
with me. I remember that if I find anything substantial
in me, Kasturi's thought was there to reveal it.
There are one or two such examples more. There
is no mystery in Nature herself. It is our complex
thinking alone that has made it such. Believe
me, my dear Varadachari, that at the time of Dinesh's
death, I was perfectly well-balanced, and still
I do not lose it even for a moment. When I study
myself I do not find any feeling of grief or sorrow
within, but as my heart is tender and habituated
to feel the pangs of others it sometimes plays
its part momentarily in this case too. .....
Divine Will
As you say in your letter that you have not been able
to explain why there should be the neglect to
take warnings at home. The other day my revered
Master, verifying all that you have written
about the Divine Will , said to me that the
Happening was bound to come and when the idea
of his suicidal tendency come to my mind, it
was He, who had made me forget it instantly,
so that I may not exercise the powers bestowed
by Him for averting the incident. Look here,
my Varadachari we cannot meddle with what is
ordained. Regarding the change in natural laws,
Lord Krishna will have to come, down again,
if needed.
Reading the Condition
Doctor! You say that you fall short of reading others,
I find that you have got a very good anubhava
shakti, and the few lines that you have written
about me offer ample proof of it. you have rightly
depicted my inner state so far as I understand
it myself. When the consciousness grows dull
and assumes the form of silent type, the reading
of such things becomes easier and you are coming
to that level. Please recall to your mind the
incident I wrote to you about some time ago,
concerning Shri Radhakrishnan at Trichy. He
wanted to judge me, but as he was not internally
so deep to be able to know what I am really
bestowed with, I got down to the elementary
stage and made the vibrations stronger to give
him the clue. It is really wonderful for you
to come to know of my position, and this shows
that you are so deeply connected with my inner
being. If a saint tries to judge me internally,
he will come to the conclusion that either I
am a dunce or only a simple-minded fellow (if
he takes a favourable view). When a man reaches
the final state of Negation, his actual depth
can hardly be fathomed. I tell you plainly that
I am still unable to know the real depth of
my great Master.
You want to know about the other personalities, hinted
at in my last letter. They are Chaitanya Mahaprabhu
and Mahatma Buddha. Besides these great personalities,
I was offered field for work by Christ himself
during the war time, giving the result of war
beforehand and also by Guru Nanak. But I offered
my apology to them for thrusting myself into it
of my own accord, promising to do my best if one
required my services of his own free will. There
are so many other saints, whom I do not even know
have also transmitted to me in dreams and allowed
me to take up their work. This had also been the
case with my Master too. Lord Krishna is the Head
and Supreme Patron of our sanstha and the name
Sahaj Marg came direct from Him. The very words
echoed distinctly through the vibrations received
direct from Him.
Death
Regarding the mystery of death, I can only say (but
that of course requires practical experience)
that when an abhyasi is favoured by God to have
a jump into the everlasting peace and unbroken
silence, he does not then like to stay in the
body even for a moment. But he is made, to live
till the time matures-for his death, by means
of bondage kept in it. When a man having body
goes beyond the sixteenth circle he does not
like to live a material life. I prayed long
to my Master to let me stay in that condition
permanently without any bondage, so that I may
have enough experience to bring that thing to
common view. He was kind enough to grant my
request and had kept me in that state for twenty
four hours and His will instead of bondage was
working to keep up the material existence. The
experience I got was that I grew dumb. But I
can give this experience to those only whose
inner state warrants it.
The agony of death becomes bitter only when the idea of
body sense is present. When that is gone there
remains then the soul-idea fo be forgotten. When
that too is gone for good, you have secured the
Union and the idea of existence is extinct.
So long as we recognise the world as it is, we hatch in
the difference between this and the world beyond.
When this difference disappears the whole Universe
seems alike, rather it turns into Wilderness,
which is a real pitch felt in the Brighter World.
We then get into conformity with the real spirit,
marking both the worlds, the material and the
Brighter. There remains then no difference and
no barrier and we feel the same air everywhere,
in the material world or in higher planes. That
may in a way be expressed as the drowning state
in real spirit where everything abandons us. The
condition is not so difficult as it seems to be
and it comes by itself through practice under
the system of Sahaj Marg. It is the easiest because
it has no material base. There remains then no
difference between life and death, both appearing
in true sense to be mere relative terms. This
is what I meant by the phrase, "the structure
falls off," used in the Efficacy of Raja Yoga.
After dictating the above I received your next letter of
11th July, 1958. Your intense devotion gives me
such immense happiness that I am sometimes led
to think that with all my spiritual services to
you I am still wanting in giving you due return
of it.
Divine Light
The light becomes 'The Light', when its glow or luster
fades away, The Dawn colour being the material
exposition of it. Regarding Mr. Y.K. Lakshman's
feeling of a soothing sensation in the red colour
I may say that that being the colour of the
point No.2 known as the seat, of Atman, gives
him peace. As for the feeling of disquietness
in the blue colour, I think that he has practised
some yoga like things previously, which if he
reveals them to me I may be in better position
to explain. Meanwhile I shall however see that
the discomfort thereby is removed.
.....
I may here put before you my latest experience about one
of my associates. When he came to me for the first
time about three years ago he was extremely gross.
I removed the grossness to my best capacity. When
this year he came for the second time, I found
him full again, but with the subtle form of grossness
and it becomes the hardest task to correct the
subtle state of grossness. By the Master's grace
I traced out the cause with great difficulty.
It was, he relied more upon his own labours than
upon the grace of God. This is a new experience
to me. You will please impress upon every satsanghi
to rely upon God's grace, doing his duty faithfully.
Please convey my respects to Appaii.
With best wishes and love to children,
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Tirupati
July 24th 1958
My dear and beloved Gurudev,
Point B
Please accept my humble pranams of love. I do not know
how to express myself before such love as thine.
But for thy Grace I do not think that I could
have been able to perceive thy condition at
all, for it is something so high. I do not know
why I am unable always to keep up that vision,
which only means it is due to thy grace. I have
hardly any views on many matters since I find
that no distinction can be drawn between living
and the dead. I do not know whether this is
the nature of point B. I suffered exquisitely
from herpes zoster for twelve days on the left
shoulder and left scapula. I have somehow learnt
the art of enjoying physical pain. You have
asked me to note my condition. I have been rather
in a difficulty about this being untrained in
self-observation in the sense you want. By thy
grace I think I will be able to do it. Anyhow
I found that my superficial and surface thoughts
have a knack of obtruding whenever I begin to
give sittings and it used to require an act
of prayer and will to proceed with the sitting.
However in the meanwhile the abhyasis did feel
nothing of this but experienced thy presence
etc ... I pray to thee to grant me the capacity
to throw out all such interferences of my superficial
life. Secondly I found that I wish to spend
my time in doing thy work - spiritual - rather
than seek to attain the Ultimate myself Today
I found that I want to reach the Ultimate alone.
This difference in attitudes is rather funny.
I know that it is thy wish that each one of
us should experience the Ultimate and the path
of Return rather than try to see what the Master
previously states about it, as that would lead
to prejudgment. Individual judgment has to be
developed and cultivated. I pray that this new
faculty may develop in me steadily. Master alone
can grant me this.
.....
Humality and Aspiration
It is so very kind of the Samartha Guru to 'verify'
but there is surely a vast difference between
my ignorance and His Omniscience. Thy affection
for me is surely very deep and I do not know
how I am fit to receive thy Grace at all. This
is a mystery for me. Could you explain this.
Every day I feel I am in the Kingdom of Grace.
Is this the passing beyond to the points A,
B..... ? There are so many things that I wish
to write and discuss and know and experience.
I am looking forward to the experience and understanding
of the different centres and points by thy grace.
I am so happy that the abhyasis are moving towards
the real experience by thy Grace.
Children have all joined the College. My wife's health is better. I am trying my very best to help my father. But thy grace is all effective and by that I hope to live and move and have my being.
With loving pranams,
Yours as body,
KCV
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 9th August, 1958
My dear brother Varadachari,
Received your loving letter dated 24th July, 1958. It is
good that you have perceived my inner condition.
It really shows how much tenderly you are connected
with me.
Love
I have often written to you whatever good and virtue
you feel in yourself is all your merit. I would
like to quote a Persian poet, "Love takes its
abode in the heart of a beloved before it brings
lover to him. It is the candle that kindles
first before the moth comes to it."
Point B - Condition
When Saint Kasturi was on point B, I had described
the condition laid in the letter, but my memory
is not sharp. I forgot it, what I read from
your condition and described by you also is
surely the condition of point B. The consciousness
with which you are connected with the material
world is growing dull and void. The condition
if you study deeply, you will find that there
is some feeling what one feels in the grey of
the morning, At the time of dictating letter
I found that there is something which prevents
you in feeling it. I will devote myself hereinafter
to remove it.
Your sentence that you have learnt the art of enjoying
physical pain reminded me of my Master. In his
last days he was suffering from liver abscess,
and the pain was acute in nature and unbearable.
During that time he used to sing bhajan (the song
sung in the praise of God) instead of wasting
time in crying. He was one of the best singers.
He knew the art of singing with the help of chakras.
This seems to be his own discovery. I also consulted
a few famous singers about it but they were silent
saying that only the higher saints can sing in
this way. He used to sing sometimes from brahmandi
sur and the result was that all of us were in
the state of trance.
Sensitivity
If superfluous thoughts come when you transmit others,
you should not worry about. Mostly they are
not yours. But they appear like that on account
of the push from behind. Sometimes the thoughts
of the abhyasis strike when you are transmitting
them. The environment brings about these things
because the yogi begins to be super-conscious
and sensitive and cleaned. Even a little darkness
appears to him like a heap. I give you an example
as to what the environment affects. A few years
ago I was at Mathura and meditated at the place
where Lord Krishna was born. There the mosque
stands; the thoughts of theft began to resound
while sitting in meditation on the platform
of the mosque. I opened my eyes for a little
while and then again went into the meditation.
To my utter despair the same thoughts crept
again. I studied the situation and came to know
that this is the den of thieves which after
enquiry found to be correct.
I give you another example of the same type.
I was at Hardwar sometimes back and put up in a chaultry'
I meditated in the room allotted to me and found
that a woman appeared before me- with her throat
lanced. When this scene remained for sometime
I opened my eyes and stopped meditation for a
few minutes. When I meditated again the same appearance
and the scene was coming to my view. I then studied
the case and found that the same woman was assassinated
there and buried on the spot where I was sitting
in meditation. I could not guess as how much time
elapsed before she was killed. I cleaned the spot
affected and transmitted the dead lady for the
peace of her soul ' After doing this I found that
every thing was calm and quiet and dead lady was
coming no more to my view. There are so many examples
connected with me and my Master.
I am exceedingly happy to note that you want to spend your
time in spiritual work so dear to me and Master
for the good of the mankind in preference to your
own advancement. It shows how broader heart you
have got. In such cases God helps with both hands
enriching one spiritually. On the contrary you
felt that you yourself want to reach the goal.
This is of course funny, but since you have the,
idea of realising the Ultimate in the bottom of
your heart, it clings to achieve the One-Ultimate.
Anubhava Shakti
My Master used to say that I brought the anubhava shakti
from the past life, but still to develop it.
I used to remember my Master constantly, linking
at the same time to the condition which I used
to have in the flight. I got accustomed to do
two things together. If you take care a little
your practice will bring the desired result.
I assure you that you are not wanting in anubhava
shakti but the way by which it is brought out
requires improvement.
.....
May our Appaji live for hundreds of years, but as there
is limit to it also, so it becomes our sacred
duty as his children to send him free when the
time matures for it. If we fail in this duty we
are not free from parental debt.
.....
With best wishes to you and love to children. Respect to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 14th August, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
Tolerance
If I put up the atrocities of your opponents before
God for justice, I fear the faulty persons will
be duly dealt with. But I have never done such
a thing so far, in spite of the fact that often
in my life I had to pass through such circumstances.
Complete Resignation
I tell you an episode from my life. After my father's
death on 7th January, 1933 one of my uncles
(distantly related) wanted to have in charge
of the management of our estate, so that he
may have a chance of deriving all possible advantage
by fair or foul means. I and my brother both
did not accept his offer and this turned him
into an Opponent. For years together he remained
so, creating difficulties for me at every step
by underhand means up till his very death in
1956 he went on with his activities setting
up causes of worry, harassments and loss for
me. He excited persons against me, tried to
involve me in law cases or other entanglements.
He even did not restrain from gangsterism in
order to harm me in any possible way. Though
I too, being in possession of a state had every
means to pay him in his own coins, I never made
up my mind for it. I bore everything patiently
and calmly remaining ever on the defensive side
with no intention to retaliate. During his last
days his own policy turned against him.
Another incident is connected with Shri Kashi Ram of Tinsukia
(Assam). His brother-in-law (i.e., sister's husband)
who was also a partner to his business was somehow
kidnapped and murdered. His dead body was found
lying on the back of his house after five months
and it showed signs that murder had taken place
about a month ago. At that time Shri Kashi Ram
was here. When he went back the Superintendent
of Police came to him for enquiry suspecting him
to be a culprit. Shri Kashi Ram's thought took
a strange turn. He began to see S.P. who was interrogating
him in my form with extreme love. A few minutes
after the S.P. was moved to tears and embraced
Shri Kashi Ram warmly assuring him that he was
convinced of his innocence. He further promised
to trace out the real culprits soon and since
then he is ardently busy with it and has made
several arrests. All the time he was calm and
fearless in complete resignation.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 14th August, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
Service
You rightly conclude that the work of the Mission is
the work of the Master. It is for this reason
that a preceptor can take up work, according
to need in any area, without consulting me.
The divisions are only for the purpose of regulating
the activities of the individuals and making
them feel their respective responsibilities
for the spiritual good of the abhyasis.
Pranahuti
I have great consideration for your health. The thoughts
flashing across a trainer's mind do not affect
an abhyasi, because it is the Divine current,
which after descending upon the trainer passes
on through him to the abhyasi. Besides the impulse
imparted to the abhyasi is regulated in accordance
with the suggestions you offer.
I wonder how you say that you are lacking in perception.
Your reading of the inner state of Appaji and
of others, so far, has been quite correct. It
is, in my opinion, not the lack of perception
but of confidence. It can be removed if you only
apply your insight and feel satisfied with what
comes to your view internally.
With best wishes and love to children. My respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 29th August/1st September, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Layavastha
You see yourself in everything, that is a good spiritual
state. It will be rarefied as you proceed till
everything goes away. It is no doubt a remarkable
anubhava that you saw me entering your body,
it shows a laya avastha in a good state. If
you search deep in you, you will find my abode
in you.
Yatra(Pts B and C)
I Put You to the point 'C' along with point 'B' near
about 15th of August. Now the yatra of both
the points is running side by side. I want that,
when I get the opportunity of meeting you, you
may be able to cross the 5 or 6 points out of
your own endeavour and let us pray for it. The
levitation you felt is the seedling for the
reality, it will end in negation ultimately.
I hope the reality is soon to dawn on you. Everybody
will call your present state a good presence
of reality, but this is not the end of our efforts,
I have yet to take you further along. The light
as luminous grey is a sign of real light.
With Best respects to Appaji and love to you and the children.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
6th September 1958
My dear Beloved and revered Gurudev,
Intense Longing
Personally I am yet going through the double movement
- my outer self and Thy supreme power in transmission
- when these two get to be one I believe it
will mean a great advance. When it would be
that my dissolution in Thee or God will mean
that perception of all Reality and in Reality
and for Reality?
.....
With loving pranams,
Yours
KCV
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 14th September, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Received your affectionate letter dated 2nd September, 1958 and 6th September, 1958.
Vacuity
When I look into you I found my presence in your body.
The feeling of vacuity is a happy sign and will
work as a foundation stone of negation. When
you arrive at the depth of vacuity, the condition
becomes remarkably good. When that state too
bids farewell, God is nearest.
We have all kept fast on 5th September on Shri Krishna's
Janmashtami and I myself have transmitted the
men keeping fast on 5th and 6th September. .....
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 25/26th September, 1958
.....
Point of Saraswati
I am perfectly sure that the attractiveness of our
Mission will prove real and will not remain
simply a hope and I feel that it will be proved
so through you. When you will begin to bring
up the real thing I have strong hopes that the
super-conscious state will work as is also the
experience of a few of my advanced associates.
Before writing the above I studied a little
about your inner system and I came to the conclusion
that the points of saraswati is in awakening
state. If any one of us recites the mantram
of Rig Veda pertaining to saraswati the stress
effects the points described hereafter, as verified
by my conclusions:-
It will become more glittering if a little more attention is paid to it for which I pray.
Point of Saraswati
Satisfaction a block
(Your letter dated 18th September, 1958) - How much
pleasure, excuse me, I feel when I see in your
letter that it does not give you any satisfaction
at all, because if a man is satisfied at any
stage that means he has blocked the way for
his further progress. I remained so restless
for years together, but it had some taste. I
remember I have spoken this thing before the
gathering of my associated that the taste I
found in ashanti state is not found in shanti,
but then there came a time when I was thoroughly
satisfied, since then I felt neither shanti
nor ashanti.
With best wishes, and love to children. Respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
|
Tirupati
30th Sept. 1958
My dear Revered Gurudev,
.....
Sometimes I have felt it impossible- to do anything, no
inclination to anything at all. My thoughts move
only towards thee and the ideal for I feel that
not until I am able to experience, attain and
enter in that I would be competent at all to speak
or write about any of the truths of being or reality
or work, or speak about the same.
With loving pranams,
yours as body,
KCV
|
Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 24th October, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
Received all your letters, which I shall reply one by one
after about a week. For your consolation I may
say that I do not feel the least disturbed by
the collapse of the house which was only 28 years
old. On the other hand I feel rather happier in
a way. The current of the river, after washing
away the Railway line, close by, had diverted
its course direct towards my house, striking the
rear wall with full force and it was but the Divine
grace that saved the portion of the house which
survived. Regarding your query as to how you can
help me, I think the best way would be to pray
that I may remain as happy as I am today, even
though the sky falls upon my head.
With Best respects to Appaji and love to you and the children.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Tirupati
2nd November 1958
My dear Revered Gurudev,
.....
Intense Longing
I have been going through a very peculiar period. Dryness
and even a kind of invasion of all sorts of
personal thoughts during meditation and sittings.
Yet the abhyasis to whom I was giving sittings
had been very much profited and reached somewhat
the states of samadhi both in the satsangh and
individual sittings. I have been praying to
the Master to absorb me more and more so that
I could go beyond to the condition of beyond-mind
and recover the memory that goes beyond this
life. I do not know at what stage I am. I dare
not think that I am just staying at one place.
I pray for the Ultimate progress and end. A
kind of intense longing has come to me to be
able to reach the state of utter negation about
which thou hast written. I do not know when
it would be possible.
Love for Master
I learn that thy health is not as good as desirable,
and thou art becoming weaker - is it a case
of sacrificing thyself for us? Master I do not
know why I love thee so much so much so I am
almost all the time thinking of thee. Thou hast
poured thyself into me and yet I have not risen
to the heights of spiritual being or fit for
the permanent indwelling of the All in me.
.....
My regards to Brother Ishwar Sahai and love to all children.
With love, Yours,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 12th November, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
Doubt and Will
I mark a peculiar thing in me that sometimes when I
say "I will do a thing if God offers me an opportunity
for it," I always fail to do it. For example
this time I have informed all South Indian associates
that I shall be there in December 1958 if God
offers me an opportunity for the same. But I
find I am failing to do it. But when I fix time
and date I never fail to abide by it. I thought
over it and philosophically I arrived at the
conclusion that when I doubt I seek the will
of God. The doubt itself brings the contrary
result. I shall, therefore, advise my friends
and associates not to let doubt come to their
mind in any form because the inner force makes
it stronger. Swami Vivekanand has somewhere
said, irreligious though it might be, that the,
"Weak is not helped by God." So whatever we
are to do we must make our will firm and corroborate
it with His Will as far as we can.
Your opinion about my health being due to some cosmic or
super-cosmic events, may be correct. I find that
something does come to me inwardly and it is diverted
to others. But some of it definitely remains within
me in the form of samskaras for the purpose of
keeping up my life. Any inner voice once revealed
to me that a saint is the target of world sorrow
and misery.
I am glad to find that your perception of the abhyasis
is mostly correct, and I assure you that it will
always be so. The first impression which strikes
with firmness is always correct. If you doubt
about it that will lead you to wrong conclusions
because it will create an adverse effect as you
have power in you.
.....
It is a fact that you have been favoured with a vision
of my state and you have also felt that I am occupying
you, though not constantly yet. In this respect
I may say that 'Supreme' (as you say) has taken
charge of you. That is one of the reasons that
the associates are spiritually benefited by Your
company. You do not feel it constantly but the
thing is there. The reason why you do not feel
it constantly is that sometimes you are diverted
to other work but when you again return to your
own condition you feel that. Your feeling that
I am automatically with you when you remember
me and very often during satsanghs, is correct.
.....
Dryness which you feel is the foundation of the state that
will lead to Negation. Regarding invasion of thoughts
I want to know whether it happens at all times
or at meditation hours or satsangh. >I devoted
a few minutes every day before flood incident,
to clear the sphere of your individual mind and
I am sure that I did it to a great extent. What
I find is that they are only at the outer surface;
the inner layer being quite clear. This process
will help you in breaking manomaya kosh (mental
sheath). However you will soon be feeling free
of these surface thoughts as well by His grace.
Your progress is not stopped but I feel that at the point
D there is some grossness which when cleared,
you will be sure that you are progressing. It
is not a new thing with you but is common with
most of the abhyasis. Please write to me if you
feel like moving in a more congenial atmosphere.
.....
You have rightly discovered that the point of saraswati
is active in you, but it is not fully yet. It
will be so when the super-consciousness of trikuti
is awakened thoroughly. I want you to come to
it in natural course.
.....
With best wishes, love to children and respects to Appaji.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Tirupati
16th November, 1958
My dear Revered Gurudev,
.....
Confidence
It is somewhat of a coincidence to think that I suspected
that which you have written about "if God offers
me an opportunity". I am heartened to learn
that hereafter you will not be in any doubt.
I shall also be able to develop confidence if
I do not doubt or leave an iota of doubt. This
is a psychological discovery which is invaluable
as a guide in the future.
I am happy to learn that I am in charge of the Supreme
and that more and more I shell be able to get
out of the invading ideas however superficial.
They come at all times. Perhaps I am very sensitive
to the pressing day-to-day affairs though I suspected
that it is the last gasp of these to take hold
of the inner being. By thy Grace I hope to be
rid of them.
Surely I would like to go forward pressing further to the
Centre , whether it is going to be more congenial
or otherwise that is Nature's will. I should like
to know whether the points mentioned now such
as AB,C,D ... are capable of being localised at
all, even as the point saraswati? If so where?
With loving pranams,
Yours,
KCV
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 11th December, 1958
My dear Varadachari,
.....
Pts A,B,C,D
You have asked me to locate the points A, B, C, D...
It can be done if I give you the measurement
of their localisation. They are adjusted one
after the other but the difference between them
is only-a millimeter or two.
Sahasradal Kamal
As for sahasra dal kamal, there may be a difference
of opinion over my views. I feel it for certain
that sahasra dal kamal lies within the frontal
lobe of the brain and the point commences after
it. I have taken these points one by one in
case of Saint Kasturi and she has described
the condition of each in her letters. She has
crossed on from A to Z and after it again from
A-1 to Q-1. I do not know when they will exhaust.
Now you can yourself put many dots as you like
beyond the frontal lobe of the brain with the
difference of a millimetre or two. In your case
as well as in case of Shri Raghavendra Rao I
want to take up several points together, but
after when you may be able to create an almost
thoughtless state which will come automatically
as you advance. I do not want to put a check
in the thoughts. It should come automatically
resulting from your devotion. I always proceed
from the root and the same I am doing in all
cases. As you advance your training becomes
easier because the helping factor of God also
develops. Doctor I tell you for your experience
that when you feel confused or monotonous for
days together or the presence of subtle grossness
in you, think that you want to go up to another
point for which a push is essential. The reason
is that as you advance the subtle divine current
becomes stronger and you have to go up the stream.
Will
Doctor I do not know what has become of me. I neither
feel devotion nor faith nor anything. I do not
know whether I have been born or I am dead.
At the same time I do not feel myself weak because
that is the first lesson taught by my Master
when he entrusted his work to me. He said to
me that my will was working in matured state
so if I taught myself weak I shall actually
become weak. It is due to his grace that the
thought of weakness never crosses my mind. When
doubt totally vanishes the will becomes unfailing
and this is one of the characteristic features
of brahmagati
Transmission
I often think of my sister. Please write to me how
is she doing now. If you give, her a very light
sort of transmission in her heart thinking that
her heart is gaining strength as much as is
required for the body, it will be greatly beneficial
to her. For the heart the transmission should
be soothing. How to know that the transmission
is soothing or not. When starting this sort
of transmission if you feel yourself soothing
it will work out the same effect on her. .....
With best wishes to you, love to children and respects to Appaji. I often long for his darshan.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
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Shahjahanpur, U.P.
Dated 24th December, 1958
.....
Dryness and Negation
..... I also congratulate you for the dryness which
you-have been feeling, though on the other hand
people generally congratulate for richness.
As you proceed the dryness which is a sure sign
of higher development will be dwindling to take
up the next higher approach towards Negation.
With best wishes to you, love to children and respects to Appaji. I often long for his darshan.
Yours,
Ram Chandra
Tirupati
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